I don’t know
I exist or no.
All my senses turned into white ash.
Many years ago
I refused this show,
Threw away my passions like unneeded trash.
I smashed up all mirrors,
I killed viewers and hearers,
I put my gun under my head instead of cozy pillows.
I don’t know
I’m alive or no.
All my cells encrusted with sediment and rust.
I didn’t mark a foe,
I didn’t forecast a blow.
And now I disremembered about the notion of ‘trust’.
I smashed up all mirrors,
I killed viewers and hearers,
I put my gun under my head instead of cozy pillows.
…When I inhale this purple mist
Dead senses start to dance a twist
And I’m ready to stop my run
And hide my gun.
But zombies here. I hear a snigger.
I must exhale. And pull the trigger…
by TETIANA ALEKSINA
© All rights reserved 2014
unbolt me 
i really like this part:
“I smashed up all mirrors,
I killed viewers and hearers,
I put my gun under my head instead of cozy pillows.”
The whole poem resonated so much within me.
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I’m very glad it did, my friend. And Tati will be quite gratified too!
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I really really loved this!
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We’re glad you did. Thank you!
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Is this complete desperation or have I missed the point? Well said.
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Annette, I couldn’t have put it better. Thank you for visiting with us!
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“I put my gun under my head instead of cozy pillows.”
your writings are quite entertaining, keep up the good work
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Thanks so much for your kind words regarding Tati’s poetry! 😀
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beautiful
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Agreed. Thank you for reading! 😀
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Powerful Words !!
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Very much so, I have to agree. 🙂
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Reblogged this on Orthometry.
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You’re so very good to us. Thank you, GT.
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You are welcome! Like you, I do not write so much (as I would like to). That said, i have a new piece up: https://stillanotherwritersblog.wordpress.com/2016/11/08/temptation-is-the-philosphers-stone/
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Ooh! I’ll read that now! Thanks for the heads up, GT! 😀
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Love this one
Great piece
As always Sheldon
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It’s powerful stuff, that’s for sure. Thanks so much for your thoughts on this piece, Sheldon! 🙂
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First it seemed like hope would take over, but hopelessness always wins I guess…
Great way of wording the unwordable!
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Oh… you’re such a skilled sweet talker, aren’t you? 😛
(Hush! I didn’t say that I don’t like this!)
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In limbo, between life and death. Perfectly worded, Un. I can imagine Nick Cave singing this. 🙂
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Thanks, Tony!
Wow! Nick Cave! I adore this guy!
‘Murder Ballads’ is one of my favorite albums!
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I don’t have that album yet. I love Nick Cave too, so I’ll have to add it to my list of albums I must listen to before I die! 😛
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Tony, I have this album…
I can send it to you as mp3 files. Do you want?
P.S. Please, don’t die after listening! 😛
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Oh, how I would love that! Are you sure it would be no trouble for you? Thank you! (I will cling tenaciously to life after listening.) 🙂
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You’ll get it right now! Check your email!
P.S. If you’ll die after listening… I’ll kill you, bastard!
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You got all from 01 to 10, except of 09, yes?
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I’ll die twice! Oh MY! That sounds like a harrowing ordeal! Then I’ll make sure I breathe in plenty of oxygen so that I don’t fall to the ground dead. 😛 I look forward to settling in tonight with some brilliant new music.
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