A tepid wind is blowing, the oval room is wiggling… All right! I’ve connected to the Daily Dissonance. Now I’m part of the tracking system. I’m a combat neuron in the artificial neural network. I’m a good manipulator, I can control both the most powerful and the most dispensable influx… Oh! My bad! I forgot to introduce myself! Sorry! My name is Werther. I’m an operator of suicidal impulses. I must detect and actualize these impulses. And I must overwrite the instinct of self-preservation.
Today I hooked a girl. An ordinary young girl. She floundered in questions about the spread of Solidarity death and how this life looked like a Moebius strip. This endless strip was killing her, and making her weak and silly. It had to stop.
When I cut the strip my nerves did not tremble. That is why they pay me. Because I can be resolute. Because I can give my resoluteness to others.
by TETIANA ALEKSINA
© All rights reserved 2014
My special thanks to Cyan Ryan
for the grammar corrections and improvement this essay!
Intriguing perspective! Something that controls that “suicide switch” in the brain, or attempts to…it reminds me of something Amy Lee from Evanescence does in her lyrics sometimes, saying “Hello, I am your mind…” There certainly is more than one voice in the brain, so it’s a great idea to write from the “other” perspective.
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f2, I love your comment. You really hit the mark with your thoughts there. Thanks heaps for visiting and reading! 🙂
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Excellent! I believe Goethe would be proud! But the Big Eye in the night sky? Would she really comply with such sly mechanization, along with the Council of Observation? After all, what song do the stars sing that do not belong to life? Werther may be too far along in daily dissonance and disconsonance for such ambivalence. And that young girl may yet trip and find another side on which to stride… Perhaps it was never Moebius, but only her own phobias?
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Oh… I remember, Ry were persuading me to write a sequel. I even started to ponder the plot. But (as always) something distracted me and this idea faded. Yuck! I should revise my ‘to do’ list!
Thank you very much, Jonathan! You gave me a magic kick 😛
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Thanks so much! I emailed a few more corrections and suggestions! One of my suggestions is to continue the story, it’s amazing!
This story reminds me of Zeromancer’s amazing song “Dr. Online”! Maybe the song can be an inspiration in the future if you do decide to continue the story of “a Combat neuron” 🙂
“Dr. Online”
by Zeromancer
Everbody online ?
It’s the beginning of the end
You want things to go faster
It’s the beginning of the end
Now everything’s too slow for you
It’s the beginning of the end
You are one step closer
It’s the beginning of the end
Say amen
1-800-SUICIDE
Or maybe Doctor Online could help you die
You need wings to fly
You need someone
To take your place
When you are gone
Is the beginning of the end
You know nothing last forever
A beginning of a trend
You need someone there to care for you
Is the beginning of the end
I don’t think you understand
Just a beginning of a flat line
Together
1-800-SUICIDE
Or maybe Doctor Online could help you die
You need wings to fly
You need someone
To take your place
When you are gone
1-800-SUICIDE
Or maybe Doctor Online could help you die
You need wings to fly
You need someone
To take your place
When you are gone
Thank you for calling 1-800-SUICIDE
If you wish to self terminate by electric shock – press one
For termination by overdose – press two
If you would like to make a reservation at the end of our drowning pool – please press three
For termination by hanging – please press four
For death by self inflicting gunshot – press five
To speak to a representative, stay online
If you don’t wish to die – please hang up now
1-800-SUICIDE
Or maybe Doctor Online could help you die
You need wings to fly
You need someone
To take your place
When you are gone
1-800-SUICIDE
Or maybe Doctor Online could help you die
You need wings to fly
You need someone
To take your place
When you are gone
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Dear me! It’s incredible!
Thank you, Ryan!!
Your will is my will.
a Combat neuron.
to be continued… 🙂
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Awesome 😀
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Thank you for your letter and your ‘full attention’ 🙂
I really appreciate it.
And I’ll do all my best! 🙂
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Brilliantly written, dear. It was gripping from the start to the end. Strong currents fluxed while reading this……………hope you have shock proofed it. Luckily, I am saved.
I resonate with Alice’s comment.
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My lovely, dear Reva!
Thank you! I want to admit… I always think of you when I publish such a stuff 🙂 You’re so light, so lovely, so kind person… I think that some my writings can upset you… can disappoint. But it’s a part of me.
And I’m thankful that you take it all… ‘as is’.
Your mixed colored Tia.
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Oh my Tia……..I accept you with all your bright and faded colors. I want to see you the way you are, not in the way, I want to see you. Do not tame yourself to calm me. Write your mind…………….I can face light and dark equally. Both are required to balance myself.
I am glad to know your warm feelings towards me. I feel lucky to be part of your love.
Loads of love to you. Reva.
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Loads of love to you, Reva!
Thank you, that you’re with me…
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My Pleasure and thanks for drenching me in much needed love. I am with you. 🙂
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My Dearest Hatter,
OMG! This is fantastic! So horrifying, sci-fi and surreal,
“I’m an operator of the suicidal impulses.
I must detect and realize these impulses.
And I must clobber the instinct of self-preservation.”
It takes my mind so many crazy places, so out of this world! Love it, love it, love it!
Curious,
Alice
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Thank you, thank you, thank you!
How I’m happy to read such comments, Alice… I’m ready to turn upside down a whole world! 🙂
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It’s a delightful, marvelous piece! Please, let me know when the “Big Shift” is coming so I can hang on. I hope that you enjoy your weekend!
Always, always the warmest wishes,
Alice
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I’ll notify you in advance, Alice! :))
By the way, my tomorrow I’ll meet standing on my head… why? I’ll not say! ;P
I want that my sweet curious Alice was lost in conjectures:)
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Wow, I love it! It sounds similar to a story idea Pepper was telling me about two nights ago! Trippy!
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OMG! Really?
Thank you!! I was nervous to publish it… I hesitated a bit 🙂
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Yeah! It’s good, no need to be nervous about it 🙂
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Thank you :))
When somebody says ‘It’s good’ I understand that it’s not in vain…
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