i don’t think i’d ever have been old enough
to be the equal of you in our younger days
to the fullness of all our summers i lived
i know you have tried to remember them all
and of course we could never have been forever
here merely for the term of our natural lives
the naïve hope was to simply not die
how’s not to reason why
for as long as my shadow’s here at your side
your regret will be a coma of dreaming
and that blanket of night will smother you
so that all you’ll feel is the pain of now
love is a beautiful hideous thing
i miss you my dear, and thank you for trying
if we could we’d kick the whole damn sky in
i’m nowhere forever and you’re haunted more
grief is a beautiful hideous thing
miss you my dear, and screw me for dying
but tomorrow things will work out somehow
you’ll smile again in the reeds at morningside
we thought we held all the keys didn’t we
to lock all the doors to mutual oblivion
but no matter how far and vain you wander
in this hall of echoes you’ll never find me
and of course you remain to remember now
how we railed at the stalking geist of death
though i wish i had not crumbled, dear
will you please not yearn to have died with me
and you’re old enough now to be scared of forgetting
but the end, as we’ve seen, is a broad church
and the road there is an arduous song
so for now be resigned to the sunshine my dear (i won’t mind)
love is a beautiful hideous thing
miss you my dear, and screw me for flying
if we could we’d kick the whole damn sky in
i’m nowhere forever and joy will return
grief is a beautiful hideous thing
i miss you my dear, and thank you for crying
but tomorrow things will work out somehow
you’ll smile again in the sunshine at morningside
by TONY SINGLE
© All rights reserved 2021
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I’m lost now in the unhinged world following hypertext linx . . . I may never see dry land again (I hope). Mooreeffoc’s super BTW.
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Aw, thank you. And if you need a lifeline just give us a holler! 😛
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“Love is a beautiful hideous thing” Nice!
Thanks for the like on oldbonesnewsnow!
Jeff – Oldbones
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You’re so welcome, Jeff, and thank you for visiting with us!
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Our loved ones out there miss us as much as we miss them, I believe.
Clicked on your links just to find that I have already read all the poems ❤
Stay safe.
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You too, Inese, and thank you. Your support means a lot to us. 🙂
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My wife died in 2017. Suicide. Somehow this creates a connection as my life goes on with the living. You never forget. Thanks, Tony.
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Outliving the person you love is one of the hardest things to bear. I’m so sorry for the loss of your wife. I am also quietly encouraged that you have managed to remain engaged with living despite your grief. Let’s never forget. It honours the lives of those that have gone before us.
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Your poetry is beautiful and evocative. And I too enjoy how you provide links to other pieces, within the pieces… a brilliant touch!
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Thank you, Steve! We’re so glad that someone out there has noticed that! 😀
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