GUEST POST // When Peace Is Chosen by Dr. Phoebe Chi

Forgiveness does not arrive with thunder, nor does it seek to be seen.
It enters quietly, like mist upon a still lake at first light,
gathering in the hush where sorrow once settled,
softening the edges of what was once unyielding.
It does not contend with memory,
nor ask that pain be erased.
Instead, it moves beneath the surface of understanding,
loosening what has long been held,
and offering—without urgency—
a gentler way of remembering.

There is no crescendo, no luminous revelation.
Only the subtle unburdening,
the way silence shifts just before dawn,
or the moment a clenched hand forgets its purpose.
It arrives unnamed,
yet its presence is known—
in the ease of breath once bound,
in the warmth that gathers
where once there was absence,
in the quiet suggestion
that healing need not be forced to begin.

Forgiveness is not granted outwardly,
but permitted inwardly—
a slow return to the self
that remained untouched beneath the ache.
It asks for no resolution,
makes no claim to rewrite the past.
Instead, it cradles what endures
in the arms of grace,
offering rest where there was once resistance,
and stillness where the wound once spoke.

If it does not come quickly,
allow its delay.
Even the stars take their time to appear,
and the most delicate roots
press silently through the darkness
before they are seen.
There is no shame in waiting;
there is only the patient rhythm
of becoming whole again.

And when the breath deepens of its own accord,
when the memory moves without sharpness,
and the soul, long folded inward, begins to rise—
then peace has entered.
Not to erase what was,
but to redeem what remains.
Not to silence the past,
but to transform its echo.
Not to forget,
but to remember in a way that no longer wounds—
to carry what once hurt
as something whole,
something quiet,
something free.

by DR. PHOEBE CHI
© All rights reserved 2025

cold (morning coffee without milk)

i should be alive
but i’m always waiting in the wings
what’s my line, what should i be
is there a place onstage for me

brown people are dying
i’m so fucking impotent
somebody help them
somebody better than me

i should be alive
not a white invader
not a white saviour
with thoughts such as these

people are dying
while i’m enmired in
the ‘how is this me’
& the luxury of guilt

i should be alive
improvise my own intention
reach into myself
reach out to others

we all grow old, don’t we
& wish we had more time
unless we’re brown
& then living is a crime

by TONY SINGLE
© All rights reserved 2025

clarity

shake it out & lay you down
lean into the hushly furrow
atween cotton wool eyes

the approbation of dreams
where you don’t need to be heard
where you don’t need to be owed
where forever can be like nothing

aslumber in their scaffolding
yet you don’t need their dispensation
to let it all fall away now
so no more maimly going clear
no more sideways tussle
& no more fuzzy words in your ear

by TONY SINGLE
© All rights reserved 2024

wellness check

i fain would draw this blue fog
but have only the red ink of shame
it burns through my sullen veins

i fain would deface my skin
but it’s like a brittle parchment
it crumbles ‘neath needle’s acerb touch

i fain would drown them all in bile
but hide behind what they want of me
my head pulses like a tumour

i fain would discard my failed life
but angst has drained resolve from my bones
i wait, days full up with hospital pudding

by TETIANA ALEKSINA & TONY SINGLE
© All rights reserved 2023

willspring

the puddle you plapped on through
were once a well e’er tranquil deep
still i spared your feelings sheer
tho’ none allowed me tend my own

were we running out of time
to cultivate me with you
or are you glad i’m gone now
to bare horizons me bestrewed

the inner guts of my skull
once a hill of bones replete
a place you called golgotha
now one through iris shone with hope

i fear we have had our time
to cultivate the me from you
must confess i’m gladness gone
to horizons tilled rain bestrewed

sometimes things don’t work out
once thought it ne’er would for me
& sometimes you have to leave
before the seed can dare to bloom

know there can be no more time
feel the inner guts of my will
gone to build me a new home
to far horizons hum bestrewed

by TONY SINGLE
© All rights reserved 2024