Another masterpiece by Anton Semenov. Do you like? No?! Damn him… go away!
Cold water flows down my face and I open my eyes. Damn him! Again… My nose inhales fusty air and I understand that this nightmare isn’t just a delirium. It’s real… I take up the wet pen. I write ‘fuck you’ carefully in the moist writing-book. Letters are dancing and I close my eyes, but I can’t close my ears.
– She will write. She can. She’s trying to rebel but I can force her.
…give me the strength to speak and to be silent
give me the strength to be a lamb and a tyrant…
Some might suppose that this is my paradise. I would agree if it were not for one zesty detail… What would you name the paradise that you can’t leave? I call it ‘a gaol’. Do you want to debate this? No? I thought not…
…give me the strength to inflict the death-blow
give me the strength to endure the last throe…
Sometimes I try to hide myself. I squeeze my puny body into the corner behind the door and close my eyes. This trick doesn’t work. She finds me, finds me every time. I still don’t know how she does this. I’m always on the alert yet I’m always taken unawares. She moves like a weasel. She has small sharp teeth and eyes like gimlets…
…give me the strength to hold the king’s crown
give me the force to stay the court clown…
– What are you mumbling? Stop it! You can’t fool me! I know you from the ground up! Write! Stop talking! Write! Write!
…give me the strength to lift up the baton
give me the strength to stop the marathon…
She bends over me. Muses are the most cruel and pitiless creatures.
I curse the first fucking day when I wrote my first poem. I curse the first fucking day when I saw her small sharp teeth and her eyes like gimlets.
I curse the first fucking day when I smiled at her. She…
My Afflation. My Curse. My Muse… I lose my consciousness. Finally… (to be continued)
by TETIANA ALEKSINA
© All rights reserved 2014
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Tetiana:
This is very clever. I like it a lot. Thank you.
Steve
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Tetiana thanks you, Steve! 😄
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a muse is like a cat
she come and go
if you try to grab her
she will goes
but if you do nothing
she will come to you
especially if she is hungry
of what you can give
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You seem to know a lot about cats! 😛
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Yes i have a lot of cats in my life
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Mine is the kind of cat that sits there staring at his/her human, and meowing insistently to call your attention. And it won’t go away.
Unless it’s writing. Then it will meow until I sit to write and then just get distracted and start doing something else.
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Looks interesting. Thanks for letting me know of your presence. 🙂
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Thanks for checking us out!
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This is great stuff. I’m glad I took that first click!
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We’re glad you did too! Thanks for reading us! 😀
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lol ❤
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😛
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‘Give me the strength to speak and be silent’ I pray this too…so much strength in less words…. But oh the power of the pen!
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Thanks so much for visiting with us, Liz.
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My pleasure…and you’re welcome.
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My muse is soft and quiet, like a cat. And very stubborn. Just like a cat.
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I wonder what would happen if you left out a saucer of milk for it?
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It will complain if it’s not whole milk.
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Only the best for our feline friends! 😛
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Including my muse 😀
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Huzzah! 😀
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Yes. Yes they are “cruel and pitiless creatures” – beautifully put 🙂
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Thank you so much for reading, Kate, and for your lovely words!
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This is awesome:
“give me the strength to hold the king’s crown
give me the force to stay the court clown”
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Tati certainly rocks the words! Thanks for visiting, Miss Sylvia. 😀
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My pleasure!
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Congrats! I really like your writing!
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Tati thanks you! 🙂
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