Another masterpiece by Anton Semenov. Do you like? No?! Damn him… go away!
Cold water flows down my face and I open my eyes. Damn him! Again… My nose inhales fusty air and I understand that this nightmare isn’t just a delirium. It’s real… I take up the wet pen. I write ‘fuck you’ carefully in the moist writing-book. Letters are dancing and I close my eyes, but I can’t close my ears.
– She will write. She can. She’s trying to rebel but I can force her.
…give me the strength to speak and to be silent
give me the strength to be a lamb and a tyrant…
Some might suppose that this is my paradise. I would agree if it were not for one zesty detail… What would you name the paradise that you can’t leave? I call it ‘a gaol’. Do you want to debate this? No? I thought not…
…give me the strength to inflict the death-blow
give me the strength to endure the last throe…
Sometimes I try to hide myself. I squeeze my puny body into the corner behind the door and close my eyes. This trick doesn’t work. She finds me, finds me every time. I still don’t know how she does this. I’m always on the alert yet I’m always taken unawares. She moves like a weasel. She has small sharp teeth and eyes like gimlets…
…give me the strength to hold the king’s crown
give me the force to stay the court clown…
– What are you mumbling? Stop it! You can’t fool me! I know you from the ground up! Write! Stop talking! Write! Write!
…give me the strength to lift up the baton
give me the strength to stop the marathon…
She bends over me. Muses are the most cruel and pitiless creatures.
I curse the first fucking day when I wrote my first poem. I curse the first fucking day when I saw her small sharp teeth and her eyes like gimlets.
I curse the first fucking day when I smiled at her. She…
My Afflation. My Curse. My Muse… I lose my consciousness. Finally… (to be continued)
by TETIANA ALEKSINA
© All rights reserved 2014
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Very real, yet surreal. It’s like the subconscious is being unveiled. 🙂
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That’s a good way of putting it! Thanks so much for reading and commenting! 😀
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Oh wow your blog is cool
Love the emotion. Reminds me a bit of a soliloquy
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Tati thanks you, Nam! 😀
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Amazing blog
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Thank you so much, CM! 🙂
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Thank you for liking our first post!
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And thank you for visiting us here at Unbolt! 🙂
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Writing about writing whilst writing what you’re writing. Great 😀
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Yes, it’s very meta, don’t you think? 😉
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META 😀
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Wow, this is quite good!
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I’m pleased that you enjoyed it! 🙂
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Oh that was a bit twisted. I like it though!
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We love twisty turny around here! 😉
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I think you and your muse are in an abusive relationship.
Solidarity.
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That’s an interesting take, princenothing. 🙂
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I LOVE this!!
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So cool, right? 😉
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Yes 🙂
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Please tell Tati that I LOVED it! I read aloud, intrigued within myself, loving my soft fall to the end!
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Oh, she’s going to love you for this kind comment! Thank you so much! 🙂
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You are most welcome, Tony! Wishing you and Tati an auspicious week! 🙂
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You’re very kind! 🙂
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Thanks so much, Tony!
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